Saying Goodbye

You died.

I longed to find you and tell you that I’ve loved you and that you broke my heart – but you died.

I spoke to your son – your son you had with another woman – a woman whom you kept secret from me and on that night my anger seeped through my pores when you broke my heart. I was dangerous, but in love with you.

You broke my heart again because you died.

I remember that chilly night in the warm jacuzzi when you charmed me with your boyish grin and your strong arms and the careful way you held me.

The night I sung our song to you as we drove down the highway – a song I hear in my head – even now – you smiled and looked over at me. I loved you.

I was ready to change my name to yours. I was ready to go away with you.

All of it is now vapor.

All of these years I’ve searched for you and when I finally find you – you’re gone. Every relationship I had, you were there. They couldn’t love me like you loved me. They couldn’t hold me, like you held me. They weren’t you.

If we were together, tonight I’d be alone – missing you –

Here I am. Alone. Missing you because you died and I loved you.

To Brian Keith Miles. I loved you so much. Rest in Peace.

Author: L.S. Watson

Hi. My name is L.S. Watson, and I'm an English teacher at a charter high school. I enjoy traveling (my favorite places are Rome and Paris), writing poetry, and watching documentaries. I have a lovable yet stubborn Yorkie-Poo named Chuy.

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